This post is just for my own sake and for something to look back on.. but let me just start by saying nursing school IS TOUGH!! oh my heck.. I spend 30+ hours a week on homework and that's not including lectures or lab times. I am trying to find a balance between being a mother, wife and student but I am soon finding that I cant be perfect at everything and that stresses me out! So what do I cut back on? THAT is the question.. Kinsey told me tonight while I was giving the girls a bath, "mom, you always do homework and I hate it! can we snuggle and watch a mobie affer this?" That broke my heart because it is so true. It sure is a good thing my girls have each other to keep busy and entertained. I broke out into tears looking at my clinical schedule for October because I wont be able to get Kinsey ready for her big carnival on Halloween at her preschool because I will be doing clinicals.. and I wont be able to get her ready and do her hair like a "princess" in the mornings before school. :( I want to be a good mommy so bad and feel like my dreams are going to tear me away a little bit. I know I am setting a good example for my kids and finally reaching my goal, but dam its rough and tough stuff. I have had TWO break downs already because I couldn't get everything done in one day and feel so overwhelmed. So pretty much after this week I will be away from the home 35 hours and that doesn't include homework. My girls and I have some serious adjusting to do and I hope it will be worth it. They are young enough to where they wont remember too much of this crazy life right now.. hopefully!! I always refer to a quote I got from a parenting book that says its the QUALITY of time not the QUANTITY of time that matter to children so I am working on remembering that daily. On top of balancing my time during the day I am EXHAUSTED! I go to the gym at 530am or else I wont be able to go any other time, and then I go to bed at 11pm because I am up doing homework after my girls go to bed at 8. I need to figure out a solution to this as well LOL I am lucky Brandon can set his own schedule at work but we are having to use other day care providers as well and I hope we have found a good fit for our girlies. They mean the world to me and it breaks my heart that I cant be the one to provide for them 24/7 like I have for the past 2.5 years. DECEMBER 2014 cannot come soon enough!!!
Rant over... haha her are some pics of my cute girls :)
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| Harper wanted to lay in her babies bed and read books ;) |
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| Fresh out of the bath watching a "MOBIE!" |
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| I love these 2 more than words can describe!!! |
YOU GO GIRL! I only wish I had that ambition you have! All that busy schedule and you still wake up early and go to they gym?! I am impressed! You are a good mommy and really are setting such a great example to your girls! Keep it up!
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