why...

im not too sure how to start this post or how to even explain because my emotions are so crazy right now.  the past few days i have been soooo annoyed with people who are onry and who dont live life to the fullest or even appreciate life in general!  LIFE is so precious and short, why waist time TRYING to be negative? i was in my chemistry lab on wednesday and one of the lab techs is so mean all the time so i finally snapped and said, "it must suck to be onry everyday of your life huh?!" lol this was so out of the norm for me but i just couldnt help it!  she is so mean and anytime we ask for more supplies she snaps back or even yells "you guys are using WAY WAY WAY too much..." so after i made my comment she then gave all of us a fake smile.  priceless....

today i was doing my normal blog reading and facebook post reading and i came upon words that just made my heart sink.  i would like to call her my friend and still my sister, but our parents got divorced long ago and we have lost contact, and our lives have gone in different directions.  we spent many days of our childhood together and even fought and played just like real sisters do!  i STILL love her and think of her especially because this girl has gone through so much... she has survived the past 5 years dealing with nasty leukemia and now it has relapsed.  im so glad her mom has kept a blog so that people like me can keep up with it all and dang, those two ladies are prob the strongest people i will ever know!  i fought back tears as i was reading about the relapse and i just kept repeating in my head, "WHY, WHY, WHY!?!?"  I know God has a plan for every.single.one of us but this one just does not make sense! ... she is one strong, smart (VERY smart, i was always jealous of her because of it haha) girl and she fought hard before so i know she will fight hard again!!!!

so my emotions are haywire because i am so upset about the news and i just dont understand, but then i am so happy and grateful for life and everything that i have! it is so hard to be optimistic all the time but i have noticed its easier to be nice than it is to be mean lol..  

here is to "the glass is half FULL" kind of thinking!!!!