29 weeks!

Well I am almost to the 30 week mark!  This pregnancy is going by way way way too fast and I am a little worried.  I have so much to get done and do before our second princess arrives and I am afraid it might not all get done.. OH WELL!!

I had my glucose test over a week ago and I have yet to hear the results.. Usually no news means good news so thats what I am hoping for :) Oh, and the fruit punch flavor is just as nasty as all the other ones! It gave me severe heart burn (weird...) and I didnt eat anything the rest of the day besides drink water.  My stomach was so upset!  Whats funny is that drink has the same amount of sugar in it as a candy bar and can of soda!  I KNOW I could easily eat those two things without getting sick ;).  Maybe its because you have to consume the whole thing in 5 min or less...  My dr has been out of town so I am really hoping he doesnt call me when he gets back to tell me any bad news... I REALLY REALLY dont want to have to do the 3 hour long glucose test!

Some things that have been going on with me:  My belly is HUGE now.. I seem to bump it on everything and it gets in the way a lot!  I have no new stretch marks but I still do have those wonderful "mommy marks" from Kinsey that are noticeable.  I only have them around my belly button!!! of all places, WHY did they have to show up in the most noticeable place haha.  I have totally lost my appetite.  I only eat because I know my baby needs it but I just cant find anything that I enjoy eating.  I have splurged a lot and had me some caffeine... Not good, I know, but I have been so desperate lately because of my lack of sleep.  I have also been one DE-pressed preggo women.  That is not a good combo, I feel bad for Brandon lol.  I love my life and I love being a stay at home mommy, but I have NO life!  I have no friends that I go do things with, and I only have a few people I can call on the phone to just chat.  So other then that my life is consumed with cleaning, taking care of a toddler and puppy, and going to school.  I am constantly busy and on the go.. so I dont know when I would find time to do anything for myself.  That starts to wear on a person when you have no change and its always same ole same ole..  I have decided I am going to fork out whatever money I have to once this baby is born to get me a Gold's gym membership and take all those fun classes I used to take all the time.  "Exercise gives your endorphins, endorphins make you happy..." Famous words from Elle Woods haha (I love Legally Blonde).  Back in the day when I danced and worked out everyday I felt so good about myself and loved how I looked. and now I will have 2 kids and I DO NOT want to look like some moms I see that just let their baby lbs shed off over a 5 year span lol  I will be back to my pre preggo weight and I will even get my nice abs and toned body back within 1 year!! Thats my goal.  Along with this depression comes severe anxiety.  Ask anyone of my family members and they will tell you I have let stress get the best of me since I came out of the womb lol.  Something so simple can throw me into a panic and I let it effect me for way too long.  I am just glad I have Brandon to knock some sense into me when I get like this.  I am hoping I can survive the rest of this pregnancy without too much more stress and depression cuz it just aint fun!
I havent had any weird cravings much.. When I was pregnant with Kinsey I craved ice all the time and I loved the smell of wet cement!!  I soon found out that my iron was extremely low haha  so any food cravings this time around dont seem out of the norm. and I am sure to eat enough iron rich foods so I dont go around wanting to eat rocks and lick the wet cement hahaha
My belly is constantly moving from this little girl!  She moves around so much it makes me wonder if she ever sleeps.  Any time my belly gets bumped or Kinsey pokes it, she goes crazy!  The dr told me last time she is no longer breach but I think she is moving around so much that she goes from head down to breach everyday lol.  She is very strong as well.  She has dislocated a couple of my ribs from her powerful kicks/punches and I wouldnt be surprised if I end up with a broken rib one day!  I am glad she is having fun in there and is moving around lots :) Thats the best part of a pregnancy is feeling your baby move around inside you!

shes getting bigger and bigger :)

Well my next appointment is the first week of October so I will update you all then if anything new happens or changes!

I may be a young mom, but I am NOT a stupid mom..

Well here we go again with another venting blog post.  It seems like I am doing more and more of these lately so sorry if I seem to be an ornery, pissed off beast all the time haha.. it is just the pregnancy hormones (hopefully).  And blogging is such a perfect therapy for me right now :)

I will just cut to the chase and start by saying I am so over hearing people questioning my motherly skills.  I know most people are just trying to help out and give me some advise but the advise I am getting lately makes me think they think I am stupid or something!  I  have never once put Kinsey in danger physically, mentally, or in any other way.  I am her mom and it is MY duty to protect her, BUT she is a toddler and growing and learning everyday so of course I cant prevent those little bruises she gets because she was spinning in the living room and fell and bumped her head, or the scrape on her knee she got from running down the sidewalk!  I let Kinsey learn and explore in anyway she can.  Sometimes that means she gets a little taste of dirt, or gets so messy with frosting while trying to decorate cookies that we have to take a second bath, or she is attempting to ride a scooter and falls and scrapes her knee.  These are all normal things that kids SHOULD experience.  And I feel that as long as I am there to watch her and make sure she is not in extreme danger (playing in the street for example) and is not putting her health in danger, and guiding her in the right direction when she NEEDS the direction, then everything is just fine!  I am def not the mother that is keeping her child spot free, and wrapped up in bubble wrap to play outside or explore.  Some people think I am crazy when Kinsey falls and I dont run over to her to dust off her bum and see if she is ok.  I let her learn what pain is on her own and if she does cry or say "ow!" I am right there to check her out and comfort her, but if she gets gets a little scratch and gets back  up and plays, what is the point of making a big deal of something so little.  She is a tough little girl and the first scratch she got on her knee she didnt even cry, and it was bleeding from her knee to her foot!! She cried when I made her come inside for a minute so I could wash it up and make sure it didnt get infected.  Then when we went back out she was right back doing what she was doing before, BEING A KID!!!  We didnt have a huge cry session with her milking it for all she could because obviously it didnt hurt her that bad.  Then there was the time she touched the lawn mower after her dad had told her several times not to, and she got burnt.  We knew she was hurt because she kept telling us "ow!!!" so thats when we were right there to comfort her and meet all the needs she needed, and give her that EXTRA attention. 

Other things we get those little annoying comments about is potty training.  Yes she is only 19 months and we are working on potty training.  Kinsey is so smart and is always letting us know when she is pooping or has a wet diaper so why not try potty training right?  So what if she doesnt go everyday.. practice make perfect and if we can have her potty trained by the time her sister comes that will be a HUGE plus!! and if she is still practicing, then no big deal!  It is a work in progress and she never gets in trouble, or feels bad for going in her diaper, but she gets a huge treat for going in her big girl potty.  I just dont see the harm in what we are doing!!!!! Another thing is YES she is not yet 20 months and we have moved her to a toddler bed.  Most kids start sleeping in a toddler bed when she start crawling out of their crib, and Kinsey is now to that point where she could crawl into it, but not out.  So to prevent her from falling out of the crib onto the floor we did the change now.  She LOVES her new bed and is so proud of herself when she can climb in and out all by herself.  I am TOTALLY aware she can now climb out and get into things, so I have rearranged her room to prevent her from climbing on anything and now all she can really do is play with her toys.

I love my daughter more then anything and hate seeing her get hurt and never want to see her in pain.  But there is a HUGE line between sheltering and not letting them do anything, and letting them learn and explore.  Toddlers learn by example and thats just what Kinsey is doing.  It is constant "monkey see monkey do" around here so Brandon and I make sure our actions are safe for her.  Kinsey knows how to have fun and get dirty, and she also knows how to be a girlie girl.  I try to be a perfect mom every day and if their is one thing that I can say I am perfect at, it is being a MOM!  I give Kinsey all the love she needs plus some, I provide a safe environment for her, I direct her to what is correct and what is not ok, I feed her very healthy foods for her growing body, and I cater to all her needs and even most of her wants!!  So when I get those little comments or advise that makes me feel stupid, it just get angry!  I am aware of what is good and bad, safe and not safe.  I have a lot more common sense then most... 

Well enough of that venting.. I dont know if that all makes sense or not, but I dont care because I feel so much better now haha!!

yuck...

just a quick update because i have a few seconds to spare for once in my busy day..

tomorrow is my dreaded glucose test!  i say dreaded because the drink is NASTY and i got lucky enough to drink it twice with Kinsey because i didnt pass the first time. i have tried the orange, lemon lime and now this time i am going to try fruit punch... i got so sick with them last time and i am hoping i dont feel the same tomorrow because it will make for one LONG day!  i know, i know, all im doing is complaining but unless you have had this sugar drink you have no idea how nasty it is.  i am thankful they check for gestational diabetes because i want my baby girl as healthy as can be.  so i will just "woman" up and do it for her! :)

this pregnancy is going quite well.  i will be 28 weeks on friday and i cant believe she will be here so soon!  i havent really done anything with the nursery which is scary because i have a huge hole to patch, tons of prepping to do to all the walls, paint, find bedding that i like, and get the carpets cleaned, get new blinds, and decorate.  and on top of that, i have decided to make Kinsey a quilt for her new "big girl" bed she will get when her sister arrives because i just cant find any bedding that i cant live without for her room.  plus it will be fun to say i made it for her :)  I have never made a quilt before so wish me luck.. PLEASE!  sleeping at night is getting quite fun, NOT!  the other night i slept like a baby though and the only reason i think is because i slept on my back all night!! i woke up to feeling so dizzy, light headed, and had sever vertigo because of the lack of blood flow from being on my back, YIKES!  i usually have pillows all around me supporting everything so i dont know how this happened but it did.  i have been feeling really down lately as well because of my weight gain.  i should be fine with gaining weight because its for a good cause, but i can no longer fit into my favorite jeans (yes i did cry when i realized it), and nothing is comfortable to wear besides sweats!  i hate not having a cute outfit to put on and make myself feel all pretty :(  i get ready everyday with my hair, make up and all then to top it off i put on my sweat pants and t-shirt.  it just isnt fun lol  i am hoping my dang butt doesnt gain any more weight so that i can at least have a couple pairs of jeans to wear this winter.  if not, i will have to cave and buy me some maternity pants...

now onto a happy note :)  Kinsey is doing amazing!!! she is now singing her ABC's and if you start singing with her to help her out she puts her finger to her lips and says "shhhh" so she can finish lol  my favorite part is when she says l-m-n-o-p.  its all slurred together and it is the cutest thing EVER!!  she is quite the diva and if things arent her way, its the highway.  we have had several melt downs the past week where she puts her hands over her face and fake cries, or thows herself to the ground and peeks to see if anyone is watching.  it is so hard not to laugh because she is so DRAMA!!! but if  you laugh it just makes her even more upset so i usually have to walk into another room lol  one example was this morning for her morning snack she wanted string cheese so i got one out and i tear it in half because thats all she eats anyways and ends up throwing the rest away but she didnt like that! she through her half at me and sprawled out onto the kitchen floor and screamed!!! i dont ever give into her or let her act that way to get something so i had to walk into another room and act busy while she was out there screaming in furry haha it lasted about 15 min, NO JOKE!  then she realized she didnt get anything so she came to me, gave me a hug on the leg, and asked for her string cheese.  when i gave her half she looked at me and said "dank you" and acted like nothing ever happened lol i am very, very, very scared to see what she is going to be like as a teenager!

i have been so busy lately since school started and it is def paying off! i am on my 4th week of the semester and i am already half way done! i have worked my butt off to get ahead and finish by nov. 1st because i am due the week of finals and my professors have worked with me to get ahead and they will allow me to do finals early!  my eczema is killing me from all the stress but it is so worth it haha i am so glad i am able to be a stay at home mommy and focus on my kiddos and school.  brandon works so hard for this family and i feel like i dont thank him enough!  he drives about 2 hours each day to and from work and never complains.  he is such a dedicated employee and manager to his employees, and i know the main reason is because he knows he has this family to support.  brandon has also helped me out a TON with kinsey.  he will watch her from the time he wakes up to the time he goes to work so i can get some homework done.  he even watches her most the day on his days off so i can be glued to the computer or up on campus taking tests.  he is such a great support to me and i LOVE it!  i couldnt have gotten this far already if it wasnt for him :)  and i wouldnt be where i am today if it wasnt for him!  i am happy and so releived to say he is MINE, all mine, forever and ever! I love you babe!

well i will update you all when i have have another spare min after my appointment tomorrow :)

3 years, and many, many many more to come!

On August 28 Brandon and I celebrated our 3rd year wedding anniversary!! I cannot believe it was 3 years ago that we got married.. time does fly by when you are having the time of your life! :)  We wanted to keep it simple this year since we do have a baby on the way and all, so Brandon took me to my favorite restaurant, PF Changs, and we just enjoyed going on a date night!  We are totally different people than who we were 3 years ago, and we have grown closer and closer and I didnt think it would be possible, but I love him more now then I have ever loved him!  I got told I was "too young" and "what are you thinking?!" and "are you sure you want to get married already?".  I was engaged in high school and I knew that we would be together forever.

We met in high school through some mutual friends.  He was actually dating/hanging out with my best friend at the time and I was doing the same with one of his friends.  Brandon and I talked all the time and I would tell him guys I wanted to go on dates with and the "type" of guy I liked (which by the way, Brandon didnt fit any of the categories lol)  I told him I liked dark skin and hair and not really into "white" boys hahaha I still can remember telling him that and I still laugh to this day about it!  I was young and only a sophomore in high school so give me a break!  Well I guess the whole time I was spilling my heart to Brandon about a "certain" guy I had so much feelings for, he was secretly falling for me.  Then one night I was hanging out with my girl friends during spring break and we decided to go to a party we were all invited to.  I had called Brandon to see if he wanted me to pick him up and he said yes.  We went to the party and had so much fun and from that day forward I had lost feelings for that other guy and was really into Brandon.  Not a day went by that I didnt talk to him or see him.  We would walk each other to class while in school and then sometime down the road it became official that we were boyfriend and girlfriend :)  I am a huge fan of Rascal Flatts and one song I always listen to says "God blessed the broken road, that led me straight to you!" and that exactly what happened with Brandon and I :)

Over the past three years here are some things Brandon and I have been through and accomplished
In our first year:
*our first place was a tiny tiny 700 square foot one bedroom apartment (we thought we were going to KILL each other the place was so small and we could never get a min to ourselves haha)
*we worked 50+ hours a week and had money to spare and do whatever we wanted!
*we got a pleasant surprise and found out we were pregnant!
In our second year:
*we moved out of our tiny place into a really nice town home with 3 bedrooms and 1.5 baths AND a garage!
*we both changed jobs.  Brandon lost his job thanks to the economy at Alert Cellular (t-mobile) and started at Qwest.  I quit working at Pine View Trans Rehab as a CNA/therapy aid and went to work with my mom at Ogden Clinic.
*Kinsey Paige Kunz came into our lives
*I quit my job at Ogden Clinic to be a mommy and Brandon got a new job with corporate T-mobile in Sandy
*We bought our first home in Layton, UT! 4 bedrooms, 2 full baths, and 2000+ roomy square feet :)
*we found out we were pregnant again with our second bundle of joy!
*learned that owning a house is a lot of work especially when you have a huge yard to care for
*realized how expensive life is when you are a one income family!

Money is not around like it used to be when we were first married, but we have so much more now!  A happy marriage, a beautiful healthy daughter with another one on the way, and we are both continuing our education.  I would say we are doing pretty dang well for being married at 18 and 19 :)

I love you Brandon Lee Kunz :) and I cant wait to spend the rest of forever with you!

August 28,2008

My Best Friend.

Her name: Kinsey Paige Kunz

Me and this little girl are the best of friends and I have no clue what I would do without her!  I thought the first 20 years of my life was great, but the past 1 1/2 has been even BETTER!!  We do everything together, and when I say everything, I really do mean EVERY THING!  I dont go anywhere without her..  We get ready in the mornings together and that is the funniest time of the day most days lol.  She will usually jump in the shower with me and pretend to wash her hair like me, then when we get out she likes to wear a towel on her head like me, and then she even puts lotion on with me.  Then the whole time I am doing my make-up she will sit on the toilet or stand right next to me and as soon as I am done with whatever I have I have to give it to her to "put on"!  She knows exactly what to do with all my make-up stuff :).  After that she will stand next to me with her head upside down like mine and we blow dry our hair together. She is too dang smart!  We even brush our teeth together every morning! 

Kinsey and I eat at least 3 meals a day together and always have an afternoon snack outside under the tree.  This is when she likes to watch all the kids playing outside and will yell "HI!!" or "HEY" to ALL of them lol.  We love to go shopping and I know she will be honest and let me know what she likes and what she really doesnt like.  She holds my hand in the mall and it makes me feel like such a proud mommy :) i love it!  She even goes grocery shopping with me and pushes her own cart.  I have to watch her closely though because before you know it, she will have a cart full of fruit snacks and gold fish!  Every time I put something in her cart she looks up at me and says "Thank  you!"

We cuddle all the time and sometimes just lay in bed talking while I tickle her arms, legs, belly or whatever she feels like having tickled (these are my favorite times).  Kinsey is such a great sharer and will share anything and everything with me!  I love going to get her up for the mornings or from her naps because she ALWAYS has a smile on her face and instantly greets me with a "hey!" She loves to give me big hugs to the point where I hold my breath because I cant breathe she has such a tight grip around my neck!  Sometimes she even grabs my chin and insists on kissing my cheek :)

My life revolves around this little girl and I wouldnt have it any other way!  I would do anything for her, and I know she would do the same.  We are what you call "TRUE BEST FRIENDS!!"

NOT the best pic of me lol this is what 21 hrs of labor looks like.. But this is the day we met!

I LOVE YOU KINSEY!!!

24 weeks.. and counting!

Well sometime last week I hit the 24 week mark.. for those of you who have been reading my previous posts you know my due date has moved about a zillion times! So I just know that by Friday I have def hit a new week lol  Anyways, I had my appointment on Thursday and everything went swell!  Baby Girl is still moving around a ton, gaining lots of weight, and the heart beat is nice and strong.  My dr estimated she weights about 1lb 9oz now! When it came time to get the ultrasound she was being a little turkey and kept her hands in front of her face.. and she wasnt moving much.  So we were unable to get any good pictures but at least we have it all on video.  I try to remember how much Kinsey moved around when I was pregnant with her and its hard because I worked 40+ hours a week and was always moving around busy with other things so it seems like she only moved later at night.  But this little girl is going constantly!!!! I swear her favorite thing to do is use my bladder as a kicking target... We were at the Davis County Fair a couple days ago and she hit me so good I literally thought I was going to pee my pants (TMI.. I know lol) and to make matters even worse, we could only find one out house that was so full I didnt dare to use it.  Thankfully Brandon found other public restrooms.  This is not the first time this has happened either!! Another thing she likes to do is stretch out and that is quite painful!

I have been feeling pretty good so far.  I have had a few nights and days where I experienced the "morning sickness" stuff but thanks to my friend Zofran I was able to go about my day :)  I am extremely tired and cant seem to get enough sleep.  I sleep as much as Kinsey most days and that just doesnt feel like enough.. I have even snuck in a Dr. Pepper to keep me going through the day! I didnt have one ounce of caffeine when I was pregnant with Kinsey or the whole time I was breastfeeding so that just proves how gosh dang tired I was.  My belly is definitely noticeable and strangers are even starting to rub it (AWKWARD!!).  I dont even like people I know rubbing it unless I really like them haha. And once again, my belly button is now an outie and you can even notice it when I have a shirt on! I read in a magazine that its referred to as the "turkey timer" that "pops" way before the turkey is done haha kinda funny..  Kinsey has started to notice my belly even more and still likes to lay her head on it when watching her morning cartoons.  I will lift my shirt up and let her rub lotion on my belly and explain to her that her baby sister is in there and she will hug it and even kiss my belly! Then she laughs at my belly button and shows me hers lol. So far so good on everything and I hope it stays that way :) Next time is the dreaded glucose test.. UGH! I failed and had to do the 3 hour test with Kinsey so cross your fingers I pass this time around!

24 weeks! I know I said I would start posting my belly pic on here but there is never anyone around to take my pic when I want it taken lol.. I will work on it! :)

18 Months!

I know every time I post about Kinsey's age I always say "where has the time gone?" But until you have a little one of your own you really dont realize how fast time flies or how fast little ones grow up!  It seems like just the other day I was waddling around pregnant with Kinsey and anxious to meet her,and now she is 1 1/2!!!  It has been the best 18 months EVER and I wouldnt trade any of it for the world.  The love you feel for a child of your own is so strong and the best feeling ever! 

Kinsey is doing AMAZING like she always is :)  Her growth is doing well along with her growth charts.  She is 20.4 lbs (she is little!!) which puts her in the 5th percentile for her weight, and her height is in the 40th percentile and her head is the 25th.  I have been so worried about her lack of weigh gain but her Doctor reassured me today that is is SUCH an active little girl and is burning calories faster then she is consuming them.  He is not the least bit worried about her weight so I guess I wont be either.  She is a GREAT eater and is always willing to eat haha so I know she is not going hungry ever!  We eat very healthy (usually) and are always moving around and outside any chance we can so I guess that explains everything!

-Dancing is one of her most favorite things to do.  All you have to tell her is "dance" or "go-go-go" and she immediately starts shaking her hips, moving her arms and just dancing lol It keeps Brandon and I entertained for hours!  She also dances the second she hears any music haha

-She is talking so much now its hard for me to think of all the words she says... we are currently working on getting her out of the habit of saying "uh-uh" when she wants something and saying "please" instead.  Other than that she pretty much tells me what she needs or wants and I love it :)

-Not only does Kinsey dance, she also sings... All the time!  It sounds like the same song every time but I dont quite get the tune yet or any of the words.  All I know is it is the cutest thing EVER!!  She will hit high notes and shake her hands and get totally into it haha

-She is a total outside girl.  When she is in a bad mood (not very often) I take her outside and she is Miss happy go lucky lol She is NOT afraid of bugs or getting dirty either!

-Kinsey goes to bed between 830-9 pm and wakes up anywhere from 730-8am.  She is only taking one nap that is about 1.5-2 hours long.  She is still an amazing sleeper and loves her crib!

-she loves to wear necklaces and you will often catch her running around when we are at home with beads around her neck

-she is drinking from a normal cup (she spills every once in awhile) but you can tell she is so proud of herself that she is such a big girl :)

-I often call Kinsey my little fish because she LOVES the water or anything to do with water.  She will lay in her bath until all the water is gone and soak up every last min she can lol 

-Kinsey is also discovering how to put her own clothes on.  She will pick up a shirt (its not always hers though lol) and put it over her head or try to put sock on her feet! She is a smarty pants!

I love being a stay at home mommy and watching Kinsey grow and learn new things every day!!!!